Thursday, October 29, 2009

Saying goodbye

I don't know how much longer T can hang on.  He's on oxygen and him mom says she hopes he sticks around at least for his bday on Nov.9.  I don't know if he will or can.  I told his mom to tell him to try to stay but if he can't she understands.

She asked me how come I was so smart.  Well, sadly I've been here before so I've had to learn.

There are some lessons you don't want to learn.

She tells me he's lost his voice.  He can still talk but has lost his voice so I guess he can still whisper.  The doc says it just might be part of his illness (which I think means the cancer might have done something to his vocal cords).

He told her his pain was about a 3 (with meds) so at least he's not so high on the pain scale that he has to be medicated into oblivion.  However, he's so tired he thought maybe caffeine would help wake him up.  I think he's dying and his body just cannot keep him awake.  His mom said the doc said it's normal for him to be so lethargic and bone tired.

I hope wherever he is he knows he's cared for a lot. 


3 comments:

Billy Canary said...

Remind mom that he will be able to hear her and to rub his feet. And that our love is with her.
The loss of voice might be a chemo side-effect.

VO said...

I did remind her of that. He can't really feel his feet (he's paralyzed). The doc says the loss of voice is probably the cancer. Chemo did nothing and he hasn't had a second dose.

VO said...

I did remind her of that. He can't really feel his feet (he's paralyzed). The doc says the loss of voice is probably the cancer. Chemo did nothing and he hasn't had a second dose.